Unconditional Trust Dream
There is not only ‘Unconditional Love', but there's ‘Unconditional Trust'. The Lord had Unconditional Trust” as a First Door to walk through with Him. He took me through my life and showed me the ‘Sovereign God'. He reminded me of when He told me I was such a little man for such big questions!
Jesus said: “It’s easy to trust when things are going good! I know what I am doing and I have your best interests at heart. It is not random. Do you want to trust me? You didn’t want to lose your marriage, but look at what I brought out of it? I have another plan. When your children are distant and challenging, I have a better way.”
I said: “I thought I was to be in the background from now on.”
Jesus: “No, I am opening the door to bigger audiences and wider audiences." He said that He had a plan that was bigger. He showed me a road and it went sideways, & backyards. Then he continued, “If you don’t have Unconditional Trust, you will think you are going the wrong way. I am directing your steps. You have had Unconditional Love for Me, but you haven’t had Unconditional Trust.”
BASEMENT – NOT THE DARKEST HOUR, THE BRIGHTEST!
Jesus took me to a basement & started to tell me about ‘Unconditional Trust'
He said, “You don’t realize how much I want you; you ravish my heart and I love to give you love and affection. You are the apple of my eye. You are the only one in my world – you are my favorite one. I have surrounded you with an army with banners, you just don’t know who I am and who I am in your life situations. I have always known the end from the beginning and I know you love me… but do you trust me? I'm not surprised when your trust was challenged. I knew what I was getting into at the start and I knew this relationship would work. I have always had your best interest at heart. I knew what I was getting into when I called you to the 500 million hope reformers. I knew what I was getting into when I called you to be a husband and a father; knew what I was getting into when I called you a patriarch… I knew what I was getting into when I asked you to marry me.”
John 14:27 – “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.”
Romans 8:6 – “For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace.”
II Thessalonians 3:16 – “Now may the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times in every way. The Lord be with you all.”
Isaiah 26:3 – “You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.”
Psalm 4:8 – “In peace I will both lie down and sleep; for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.”
Matthew 11:28-29 “…Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.”
I was somewhere in the basement, and it felt like it was my darkest hour. But Jesus told me,“No, this is your brightest hour!” I looked and saw so much gold behind me in the basement.
Jesus explained, "At first you were not happy in the basement because it wasn’t happening fast enough, and you were not trusting Me. Anything down there that you have to be happy about can be used against you by the enemy.”
I thought, Trust is so important – there is nothing to be dependent on for our happiness but Him. Jesus responded, “Just be mature enough to trust”
We had a conversation where He showed me how I had been consumed with my family, my health, and how they had become idols in my life. The dream was idols in front of me, and Jesus showed me these things that I was focusing on instead of God. These idols were taking me away from the beauty of the day and I was too focused on other things.
Jesus: “I have given you the beauty, knowledge and grace to be happy. And to be happy today if you see Me through Hope, Confidence, and Unconditional Trust.”
THORNS IN MY FLESH
I had about 4-5 thorns in my flesh that were hurting me and I asked a few times for them to be taken away. I was doing my best to follow Him, and I thought the thorns would be taken away.
Jesus: “My Grace, Hope & Trust are sufficient for you. If you are not changing it, don’t use an excuse to be sour. See who I am and enjoy Me. Enjoy your life. Lose the perspective that it isn’t working out, because it is not the right time and there is something better. I am using this difficulty to produce a stronger opening of trust”
He wanted me to trust Him. After all He is God and I am not! It's ok that it hurts and its uncomfortable, but He is leading me down the best path for my life and for everyone involved.
SOUR GRAPES vs. GOLD IN THE BASEMENT
Jesus showed me a sour grape. He showed me the idols were like sour grapes. And I was eating them! He showed me the lumps of gold. He said, “Learn how to be content whether you are bound or base; because you know me and you know what I am going to do in your life. Trust the thorns and know that they won’t produce of infection of negative, but an infection of beauty.”
God is God. He knows it is going to turn out better and that it will turn to gold. Stop looking at the sour grapes and the idols down in the basement. Jesus says: “Trouble, loneliness, the situations, and these fears and idols will be destroyed with Praise, Praise, Praise!”
IN THE FIRE
Jesus shifted the scene. He showed me Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, and how they were not going to bow down to those idols. He was having me stand by them, and even if I was a thorn in the fire, I was to be in there with them. I was next to Him and said “I believe the right person is here, I am not going to get bitter or sour as things settle down; the work situations, the living situations, the relationships, etc. I will not bow down to the idol of manipulation, that people manipulate circumstance’s; I needed to bow down to ‘Unconditional Trust in Him. Even if the fire comes, He is going to be standing next to me with the angels.
Jesus told me, “You have been kicked of the Trust Room 3 times because everyone was tired of you worrying!”
At this point I could see a demon called “Worn-All”! Now I had lived on a street called "Wornall" but now I saw that I had “worn all” with my worrying. I thought that the demon was too big for me in the fire! All these demons that had tried to come against me, but I wasn’t going to go into those fires alone. God was greater and the angels were greater. They would be with me.
Then I saw myself being pushed down a river. All I could see was the force pushing me down the river. I couldn’t see God holding me up or the angels pushing me along; all the obstacles seemed insurmountable. But God was lifting me up and directing my steps, even directing me across the river to the right place.
That unconditional trust would allow me to fly high and have praise in the process. It was amazing. So I got thrown into a furnace in the basement, and I see these guards and others who were killed by the fire. Then I saw in the fire the ones who didn’t get burned, (Shadrach, Meshach, Abednego, Jesus, myself, and others). If I would have unconditional trust and trusted that I wouldn’t get burned in the fire, but if I would get negative and complain, the furnace would be the end of me. God wanted me to get His attention through trust; the most difficult situations and being able to say “God, you will deliver me from that fire, but even if you don’t, I am still going to honor you and give you my best… take away all of the enemies power. Unconditional trust. I could not be defeated – the forces that were for me were stronger than the ones against me. I will not be harvested before my time. I may have gotten thrown into the fire, but if it is not my time, then even if I get thrown in the fire, I know God will deliver me” Even if he took away all the thorns, etc. I read the scroll and it said “Are you going to trust Him?”
Starting out in the basement, everything had been stripped. Then these idols came up and the fire. The idols were the things I had trusted more than God.
GODS TIME-TABLE IS BETTER THAN OURS
God's time-table is better than our time-table. I told God how I wanted things to work out, and He looked and me just nodded His head, but didn’t take my advice. He has a better plan, and even the things that don’t make sense in the past, the discouraging things, things that didn’t work out the way I wanted too… someone leaving; hurting us, etc.
Eventually I will be glad things happened the way He said it should go. I wasn’t getting frustrated with things not working out the way I think they should. He was taking me further the more I trusted. I kept believing for big things and trusting that God will do it the way he intends to it. Holding onto to the promises and believing for the big things and not needing to know how it is going to happen. God is working it out in His plan.
DREAM PART II – HOUSE MOVE
God moved us to a house that we didn’t think was the right house – it was closed and sold to someone else, etc. God was asking me: “Can you put your life in my hands?” “Then suddenly there was a house close to where we wanted and we ended up getting it and it was better than I expected. We ended up getting everything we wanted. I was to go back and thank Him for all the closed doors and the delays because He was working it out in a better way. Be persistent, keep praying, but trust that GOD has a better way and it will all work out in His time. I was to have a good attitude in this new house; keep my spirit up and happy; keep in praise. This is the day the Lord has made, trust him. Trust is where I am to be at. Don’t ever allow our passion to be stolen. Those closed doors and disappointments, the idols and fires – He told me to turn and look and Abraham was right by me.
Jesus said, “Abraham waited 20 years. He prayed for the promises, waited, and then had to take it up to the altar and to sacrifice his son and it didn’t make sense.”
So the Hope Reformation; the promise of a family that adores; and the 50 million Hope Reformers; it didn’t seem fair – but I was to trust Him and He was going to astound me. I was to put all those dreams into His hands – it wasn’t the altar, it was His hands. My health, my family, my wealth, etc. all of it was in HIS hands. I saw a young soldier on the front of the book and it was a warrior. It was a Yellow Book and Yellow House and it was how to roar! There was this Book and it was Yellow, and God was the Author and also the One who had gone on the journey with me.